BELOVED

Goodbye, Sickly Sweet, At Least, I Don’t Know You, After All, Part of Me,

Why, Another Life, Eden, Suitors, Afterthought.

 

Goodbye

I’ll share a smile with you

Stay a while with you

If you want me to

If you wanted to

Then I’ll say goodbye to you

Goodnight, good day to you

Wish you had stayed

Don’t you?

But you’ll go away

Won’t you?

Mine for a day, weren’t you?

 

Pretty Boys

Pretty boys brown or blue eyed

Will break your heart just give it time

He’ll be yours until he’s hers

Soon you’ll be someone else’s girl

And it will warm until it burns

It didn’t last, he was your first

And when I wish you were still mine

I think how quickly all the smiling turns to sighs

It is sweet until it sours

You’ll watch the clock, you’ll count the hours

Some days are spent just missing him

Or wasted when you regret everything

If only love had stuck with us

If only I had been enough

And when I wish you were still mine

I think how quickly all the smiling turns to sighs

 

Sickly Sweet

Sickly sweet you talk to me

And I return the flavour

I’ve not seen your face in weeks

And so I have to savour

What we had we couldn’t keep

We tried, we foresaw failure

There’s no one to blame for this

I had your love, your goodbye kiss

What more could we take from it?

We spent our time, but kept its bliss

 

At Least

At least I never said I loved you

Or said it more than once

Never meant it, it was meaningless

I said it just because

Good thing you never said you loved me

Or thought of me as a friend

Only loved for my company

And the looks that you would get

Oh when it was over, I was sober I was fine

Did not seek the bottom of a bottle to ease my aching mind

Best that when it ended we pretended we had time

Not that I was in need of this unbroken heart of mine

At least, at least, at least

We never said I love you

At least we never never said I do

Baby, I do too

At least we never said I love you

 

I Don’t Know You

I don’t know you anymore

I can’t hold you anymore

We are strangers as before

Were just strangers after all

You don’t call me anymore

I don’t write you anymore

If not you, who was it for

Past not presently adored

So we tried at least I did

I gave in, you stayed hidden

Was it love, I don’t know yet

Too late to start, too early to forget

Remember in the store

When I played a different role

We were talking, she was home

Stole you saw you as my own

Always going always gone

You’re not mine you are no one’s

What can I do, it’s been done

You’re not right but you’re not wrong

So we tried, at least I did

I gave in, you stayed hidden

Was it love, I don’t know yet

Too late to start, too early to forget

Once was glowing, now I’m glum

Just a girl while she’s the one

You’re not my boy, not a song

And to you I am no one

I don’t know you anymore

I can’t hold you anymore

We are strangers as before

Were just strangers after all

 

After All

After all is said and done

It’s said and done

You can’t get it back

Not from anyone

And after all that you’ve been through

You’ve been through it

Can’t redo it

Just remember it

Ain’t it sad

Ain’t it the worst

When you want it bad

It’s gone it’s a ghost

Ones you’ve loved

The best and the most

Not one stays

Everything goes

 

Part of Me

You were part of me

The bass beneath my heartbeat

Why I could not see clearly

You faced but did not see me

Was I part of you?

Just some dust that flew into your eyes

Am I to be prized out?

Pitied and then put down

I could have been your sunshine, instead

I was just the night light in bed

Bright enough to read by

Not light enough to leave by your side

I could have been your sunshine, instead

I was just the night light in bed

Bright enough to read by

Not light enough to leave by your side

I could have been your sunshine

I could have been your sunshine

You were part of me.

 

Why

Why’d you have to go and do that

When we were just fine

Now I gotta ‘member you as

Just a waste of time

I’m not lonely, you’re not the only

Boy who’s caught my eye

Sure, she’s lovely, sure, she took you from me

But that’s not a crime

Never mind, never mind

It was only love

We were oh so young

How could that mean a thing to anyone?

Never mind, never mind

It was only love, it was only love

Never mind, never mind, never mind

Were you what I thought of you or

Were you someone else

Was I who you wanted or

Was I beside myself

We were once but now we’re no more

What a thing to be

There is nothing left to fight for

Just the love of you and me...

Does she know, did you tell her?

Would she go if you did?

That you were full when you were without her

Not as low as she’d like to think

 


Another Life

Someday soon

In another life

One of our afterlives

You and I

We’ll get it right

What we couldn’t do

This time

As someone new

As something else

We could be anything

In the universe

We’ll meet again

I’ll see you there

But until then

We’ll be elsewhere

 

Eden

Eyes like a serpent 

Hypnotized o'er again

Was our love just sleeping

Or am I still dreaming of him

Wandering this Eden

Without ever being his

Even believing 

Without ever seeing it

Wandering this Eden without 

Best if I get going 

It's better, you know it

Oh and so it goes

And so it goes

You’ll never know

I’ll never know

And so it goes 

It goes, it goes, it goes, it goes

Eyes like the oceans

Head full of heavenly notions 

I feel like I've known him 

In lifetimes before this one

Wandering this Eden

Without ever being his

Even believing 

Without ever seeing it

Wandering this Eden without him

Best if I get going 

It's better, you know it

Oh and so it goes

And so it goes

You’ll never know

I’ll never know

And so it goes 

It goes, it goes, it goes, it goes

Nothing grows in this garden 

Our love dies like everything 

Dies with my ideas of him

And I alongside them

 

Suitors

She has suitors,

Pursuers

Still he won’t pursue her

Lover,

Lovelier

Than all men put together

Thank your saviour

Count your lucky stars

He gave into her

Rather hers than your arms

It’s for the best

Your happiness and his

Love is blinding light

It tricks your appetite

Hungry for anyone

Who isn’t right

Oh you’ll be alright

Thought it seems unlikely tonight

You’ll be alright

You’ll be alright

Won’t chase her

Embrace her

Done all but erased her

Exchanged her

For tamer

Less turbulent waters

Thank your saviour

Count your lucky stars

He gave into her

Rather hers than your arms

It’s for the best

Your happiness and his

Love is blinding light

It tricks your appetite

Hungry for anyone

Who isn’t right

Oh you’ll be alright

Thought it seems unlikely tonight

You’ll be alright

You’ll be alright

 

Afterthought

You loved me as an afterthought

I loved you long before there was

A you who I be thinking of

And still that wasn’t long enough

You loved me like an uppercut

Loves the brush before the crunch

Like death loves oblivion

Like you could love anyone

I love you like the stars above

Love the burst from whence they’ve come

Like our planet loves the sun

Like we’ll miss it when it’s gone

I love you more than anyone

Or anything I’ve ever loved

He’s better than I pictured ‘em

My everything, the only one

‘Beloved’ written by Catherine Frances.